Especially when unsuspecting guests are around, they’d say something like ?if not, have to crush some blueberries tonight,? that’s code for me tha...t I’ll get my balls canned if I were to screw up that night. So in times when I’m hard like now, there’s only one thing I’m allowed to do? Beat it with my duster. *WHACK* OUCH!! *eyes start to water* No matter how many times I do this, I can’t ever get used to the pain. *WHACK* Ahaaa! No shhh, I have to keep it quiet, have to bite my lips. *WHACK. I go by Jay Garson now. I'm quieter. I still have my sense of humor, but I don't need to be the center of events. One glass of wine is enough for dinner, no nightcaps need apply. I'm content to enjoy life as it comes. I date occasionally, but I'm not looking for one night stands anymore. When I meet a woman, she has to meet a much different set of standards.I glossed over my description of awakening on the setback that morning. I was in a daze. It took me quite some time to realize that I was. ”Terry’s face went white with anger, “Mr Tyrell I met my fiancée before he was awarded the VC.” She said bitingly.“Oh yeah”, Tyrell said in a smarmy voice, “When was that?” Terry never hesitated.“About the same time, the papers broke the story of you and a fourteen year old school girl.”Tyrell’s face turned white, if looks could kill Terry would have been dead, but she just smiled sweetly back at him.He glared at her for a second, then suddenly tore off the mike attached to his coat and stormed. . In the bathroom, Mary settled Teddy on the covered toilet and began rummaging in the linen closet. "What're we up to?" Teddy asked.Mary turned, holding a couple of small boxes, "If you're going to do a lot of gay sex," she announced, " you're gonna have to get used to getting clean, first; your boyfriends aren't gonna get all excited about having shitty dicks! Not to mention the possibility that you'll have to clean up by mouth, after..." Handing Teddy one box, she opened the other,.