.that's not the pointOn Thursday K and I checked in for a couples tantra massage afternoon – firstly I got 2 hours massage and introduction to the g...entle art of energy sensitising including exploration of what my prostate can do for me (even on the outside). And then K took to the table, we had a change of tantric guide and she got a beautiful erotic and relaxing session. We chose to watch each other being massaged – which I gather is unusual, but seemed rather obvious to us…we both love seeing. Norman scowled at the rack of billiard cues, all secured in place by a padlocked bar, ensuring that no visitor would be tempted to put the table to the use for which it was intended.Norman carried on into the library, an airy room lined with books, all carefully wired into place on their shelves and overseen by one of the more sour-faced room guardians."What do you notice," Norman waved a hand around the room. Freddie looked blank. It was a library, there were books, he wasn't sure what else he. But after our first fuck, all that went away. Soon we were fucking all the time. I was 23, and she was 20. But my problem was, every time we fucked, I was fantasizing about being a woman in bed with a man! Within a few months my true nature began to leak out and Emilynne began questioning me about my sexuality. At first I feigned outrage, but when we were in bed, having sex, I grew weak, and began confessing bit by bit, some of my fantasies. Emi was supportive and didn't judge me, but she began. I have something to tell you, too, though, you obviously got some of the picture with the scene that you witnessed. When I joined the Militia, after the heartache that I suffered, along with Ryan, well ... we tried to make it work, he and I. It didn’t last, though. He was killed in action, shortly after an argument because I wanted him to seek a non-combatant assignment instead. I didn’t want to lose the one love that I still had left, to be totally and completely alone, you see. It was selfish.