And I love to have you look at it. I love to have you period. Why can’t you just be with me goddamn it! Instead of some old fart nearly 2000 miles a...way. I know I know she’s fucking beautiful! So the fuck am I!’ ‘Connie,’ he said, reluctant to speak but knowing it was necessary. ‘You know I love you. You know I want to be with you. I hope you know that when our relationship ends, I won’t want it to end. But Vic is my life. I wouldn’t even be here if it wasn’t for her. And we wouldn’t be together. " C'mon, we've got to get this hen party moving." Wendy thumbed at the teen concubines and children behind her. "Won't be long before First Call for Mess."Just then, a three-note bugle blast came across the intercom."What's that?" asked a startled Lyn."First Call for Mess!" came a disembodied voice of the Duty Quartermaster. "First Call for Mess!"I think it might be the first call for mess," suggested Sandy."I think you might be right," Lyn agreed, as concubines and dependants lined up at the. He sounded resigned. Pained. Remorseful."Two people loving each other is not wrong. " she said matter of factly. She sounded more confident than she felt. "There is some small comfort I can offer, that nobody else can….and I….I want to."Committed to her path now, she stepped forward, unbuttoned her blouse, letting it fall away. Fluidly as if in a dream she let her slacks fall to the floor. He stood there, quiet, like a slumbering giant. In moments she was against him."You need this… I…. need….. She know I have money on top of my Shipping job I'm also in line for a very big inheritance from my grampa. Even if she is only after my money I can't afford to let go of Dian, she is just a sexual phenom to me, and oddly now that I found out she was having an affair the more she become so sexually arousing to me.I stopped going out to sea and gave up my ambition to Captain my own ship. I started working for a wealthy family friend who run a Ship supply storage. I was still making good income.