" It is true. I do getvery confused lately. I find it so hard trying to defend myselfwithout using the word 'no'. I find it difficult trying to keep u...pand compose my thoughts properly. I guess I'm not as smart as I usedto think I was. I can see all my 'false prides' as Sara calls them, so more clearly now."I'm confused too. I'm just trying to understand you. Who knows,maybe I already do understand you. I keep thinking there's more toyou than some dumb ass homophobe with a little dick. Maybe I'm. And also the hardest to arrange.With that in mind, I rode my trike to the local hometown radio shack type store. I figured I would need one eventually for the business, so I bought the small audio/video recording studio, in a shoe box. Literally, it was housed in a shoe box disguised package.It was a modular unit. Home base was the recording unit itself. It either ran on the car's battery system, an ac adapter, or a self contained battery for short term use. The recording unit could pick up the. Darius had calmed down enough that he listened to Dawn. Dawn always helped him, and she was right. Darius stood and walked back to where Jason was holding Deidre. It hurt him to see her in his arms, but he had to do this. ‘Deidre, I understand that you don’t want to be with me anymore, but I will be a part of my daughter’s lives. They are my babies and I won’t abandon them. If you want to be with Jason, then fine. I just wish…’ Taking a deep breath, he continued as his voice cracked. ‘You. I would have to wait and play it by ear. Friday came and I was ready. I had played this moment over and over in my head to make sure I would get it right. Before I could do anything I found a small folded piece of paper on my desk. It was carefully printed in draftsman style lettering. ‘I’ll pick you up at your place at 7PM. Wear jeans and comfortable shoes. I know the address. Greg.’ This was supposed to be my play and the SOB took the lead away from me again. The end result was what I wanted.