She hit me and said, “Stop it. You are getting naughty. You should not talk to your mom like this.”I said it was okay, as I had seen her half-nake...d. So this won’t be an issue talking and sharing such stuff. She was a bit worried and asked me to promise that I should not say anything about this to my dad. I confirmed that this would be our top secret and she wouldn’t have to worry.We had dinner and then started to move to our rooms. I just asked if I would get to see the show tomorrow as well in. ’ ‘Well I’d rather become an aging great actress than a star. The lights go out for stars. My mom was one of the finest female drama actresses of her generation and could have gone on forever had I not come along and fucked her up by giving her a difficult pregnancy.’ ‘Oh Eva, come on. It wasn’t your fault.’ * * * Eva had no idea what was involved. The tickets arrived and they were for New York, not Boston. Her mom said, ‘Darling they shoot most of the show in New York because that’s where. Jeff was quietly enjoying the journey as well. Wasn't he? I couldn't tell from the look on his face. He looked like he might be distracted. Was I just thinking too much?I needed to get a little perspective here. Despite all the supposedly fabulous men I had dated, I had never really had a boyfriend.Shocking, isn't it?What was the value in having a boyfriend? I could get a quality date whenever I wanted, to do whatever I wanted, wherever I wanted. I could have as little or as much sex as I. "Yeah, that's why I am a supermodel," she said sarcastically. She was ready to leave."Don't you know I love you, Vivian?"Maybe she blushed; I think I saw her chin shake feebly, but her eyes never left the sky."You don't." Yes, I do. More than anything else. I love you with all my will." I extended my hand, touching her peachy skin as lightly as I could, feeling the warmth and electric charge that nothing else in the world possessed. "Why won't you believe me?" You are fooling yourself." I was.