“He said that he didn’t want her to move away and that he had a small house on his property, a guest house that we could stay in for a while. Mom ...got a small settlement from Dad’s death but since my dad was self–employed and it was an accident due to weather more than anything else and you can’t take God to court.“Mom seemed hollow for a while but eventually started to come back to life but she was taking more direction from Mr. Evans. One night she went over to the main house to go over some. Grabbing a chair she stood up to check the light bulbs and shade saying,"hey come make sure I dont fall over!" Grabbing hold of her hips facing her belly I got a great view of her bare stomach and slightly below her pant line as she streched to reach. Guess I was in a zone cause I didnt hear her talking to me till she said," hey are you enjoying the view?" Wide eyed I looked up and just studdered icoherently. "Well you must have," she said as she giggled having seen a bulge beginning to grow in. ”“You own a dirty movie?” asked Heather incredulously.Lauren shrugged and smiled. “Gary bought a few, years ago. Every once in a while, we’d watch one in the bedroom and fool around. I keep them hidden in the closet.”Heather’s eyes were glued to the screen. In the opening scene, the well-stacked blonde on the cover of the videotape, dressed in a practically non-existent miniskirt, blouse, and stiletto heels got out of a car with her boyfriend and went into his house. Once there, they sat down. Everything from her awakening onward wasrecorded into memory filtered by female brain patterns andhormonal biases and an unfamiliar new shape, with noautomatic role perspective from which to judge and evaluatethem. She no longer had a male role in the play ofconversation and civility, but she had not been trained>from birth in the girl's part in the script.It was liberating, refreshing, and confusing untodizziness, because everything that mattered had to beexamined for validity. A lot of.