After we had eaten and I washed the dishes while Miles went back to complete his job on the outhouse, I began to unpack and put my clothes away. I hun...g my winter coat with a sheepskin lining in the back of the closet. I pumped some water and carried it upstairs to wash out my womb. I wanted it to be clean in case Miles wanted to make love to me once more.I thought of all that Margaret told me about a woman and a man having loving intercourse. She told me about sucking his manhood and him. ” Whatever strange force—and yes, I already believed something supernatural was at play—had infected my camera and posed me a question with such an obvious answer had wasted its time. Sure, I wanted change. Wanted it more than anything. That’s why I was going to force it; tonight, by my own hand.Then, would you like to change the lives of those you hold dear?I hadn’t expected another message.The faces of the two women I lived with—my aunt and my younger sister—surfaced momentarily from the. I slappedhim hard across the face and for a second he just stared at me.Then he slowly shook his head. "Don't cry," he said."Wanker," I said."Fat cow," he replied. He went toward the door."You can't talk to me like tha," I stammered, finding it hard to focuson his face."I can talk to you anyway I want," he said, "you fat bitch." You can take yer job and stuff it," I snapped, "I don't care!" You'd have lost it anyway," he said, opening the door, "this way yousave us the bother of giving you. I guess I was the local bike but so what I enjoyed myself!Anyway one day there was a bit of a change with some guys from the Israeli Army coming. I dont really know what they were doing there but I think they were being trained by the army although these guys were so big and strong I think that they should have been the ones doing the training. I had never ever seen guys with such gorgeous bodies.I met one of these Israeli soldiers. He looked so hot with his big muscles, his medditerrainean.