This got me always really afraid. I also turned more inward in puberty and became quite shy, having lots of hidden fantasies. I would sit a lot behing... my laptop watching oral sex videos. I never really knew where it came from. I always had it. I always felt that have vaginal sex felt strange to me. As if that should be for loving only and that oral sex is more lust.When I younger I bought a dildo and this might sounds weird. I never used it on my pussy. Never even in the years later. It just. And the rest of the story, I have already typed in. Haven’t I? Yes, I did.So, we are back in the present now. Pravallika and I, in the basement. She crying and demanding me an explanation. All this while, I wondered where the hell Joseph was. She jerked me hard. I came back to my senses. Pravallika was still crying. She was still asking me, “Tell me, Sindhu. Why did you fuck him on our wedding day?” I lied to her again. I lied to her that I loved him. I lied to her that I was sorry for her. But. I looked at her, questioning, not because I didn't understand what she wanted to know. I was questioning the domino. Was it telling me what I thought it was? I saw it again; my hands on the kitchen counter, her hands on the kitchen counter like two dots; me with my legs spread; her with her legs spread, like two dots at the other end of the domino.She was about to clarify her request when I spoke. "I'll show you how it happened. I'll tell you and I'll show you."She sat up straight as I moved to. Mel was standing in the shallow end, just her head sticking out of the water and I swam underneath the water sneaking up behind her and grabbing her on the waist. She let out a little yelp, spun around, and suddenly we were face to face. Neither of us said anything, our eyes just watching each other. Mel spoke first, “Michelle, you never answered my question, have you ever kissed a girl?” “No, but I do want to,” I replied. Mel was biting her lip again when she asked, “can it be me?” I nodded,.