And her uncle, Justice Thomas Barrow, who handed down the sentence. "An honest mistake," he said, as he did every year. Judith sniffed.Edwin Barrow, t...he convicted cattle thief and black sheep of the family, came too. And Matilda Barrow, the family’s first and only doctor, who earned her degree while disguised as a man and attending the College of Physicians of Philadelphia. Even Betsy Barrow, who sewed secret messages into rider’s cloaks during the Revolution and captured two British spies with. .. I should have known." I'm not gay!" I struggled to pull my eyes away from her barely-contained cleavage. "Trust me. It would certainly make things wayeasier." Then why?"I swallowed. What was I going to say? That I had turned her into somekind of crazy slut?"Because..." I glanced downwards. "Because the truth is, Leah, I reallylike you." Then why are you turning me away?" She sounded almost hurt."No, I mean. I like you." I emphasised the last word. "I like the Leahthat's smart and. "Dawn..." I whisper, "I'm so sorry... I'm sorry..." I rise and take this amazing creature into my arms. She needs so much love. And somehow, after everything that's happened, I still have so much love to give.I denied it from the very start. Wouldn't let myself think it. Eventually I couldn't deny it, and I blamed myself. Then I blamed the monks, for making me feel this way. And then, when the end came, and Glory took my Dawn away, it was as though a piece of me had been ripped away. I stopped. "Gail looked at him. "Really?" The whole place is miserable. There isn't one decent person in that whole stinking country. Sometimes, I just wished I could put it all down and walk away from it. Just say the hell with it." What did you do to keep from going crazy?"Rod took his drink, took a big swig then tilted his glass in a little ironic toast. "Well, booze, for one thing."Gail cocked her head. "For one thing?"Rod looked at her seriously. "Yes. Pot, for another. Don't look so shocked or.