But it was Thursday, already, and the gawkers knew there wasn't going to be a show. I left the car, fully clothed and with my sunglasses on. My eyes w...ere all bloodshot and the light hurt. I looked like I felt like shit. 'Cause I did.Rebecca and Ryan were just coming out of the office when I went in. Ryan started to say something, but he got an elbow in the ribs and stifled himself. When I came out, sans clothes, but avec shades, Rebecca was still there, but Ryan wasn't. She was just looking at. .."Welcome to tonight's broadcast of 'Focus on the Family.' I'm your host,Dr. James Dobson. My guest tonight is Edward Bell, who just wrote a bookentitled, 'From Boy to Girl and Back Again'. Mr. Bell, lets start withwhen you first struggled with your gender." Well, It started because I was abused sexually at seven years old. Thisabuse lasted two years, and at the end of it, my identity was totallyshaken. Added to the loss of my father to suicide two years earlier, andgetting as a stepfather. " "Say it." "I... I love being round men in the nude. Even complete strangers." "Slut!" He pushed her away, sending her staggering against the wall. She stood,struggling to rearrange her top. "I'll be there at eight sharp," he said "Now get out." Tricia glanced at the clock on the wall of her small apartment. It wasseven fifty-five. Her stomach churned as she thought of what might happen thatevening. She stepped into her bedroom and stood in front of her mirror. She waswearing a bathrobe. She. She said I know Ive caught him too,she said to be frank its a little turn on and I said I know which for her was a surprise I said no its actually fine.She said thats nice to know because I think about taking him for a drive in my car to do naughty things with sometimes to get off..I was like oh I.I said why dont you offer to take the lad home in your car and then have a bit of fun with him,she said no i couldnt do that,I said why not? she said its only a fantasy really,I said yeah yeah did you.