’ He exhales, and I can feel the silver medium between us shudder as something enters it. Then I feel it moving through the tulpa into me. I feel Ko...butsu’s thoughts, flowing up through my mouth into my head. ‘Think of yourself,’ he says. ‘Think of the best parts of you. Are you kind? Are you loving? Are you generous?’ I nod, and I feel those emotions, those sensations pouring back out of me along with Kobutsu to enter my tulpa. I shiver, wanting for a moment to claw them back and scream that. The bartender comes back and takes both your dishes and you look at her. Smiling you say, Im sorry if you will excuse me I am going to go grab a smoke. Oh, perfect, if you dont mind I will join you, putting on your coats you tell the bartender you will be right back he smiles and nods, busy doing other orders. She starts walking ahead of you slightly and heads for the back door of the bar. You follow and opening the door behind her you find yourself in the back alley of the bar. There is a. " That's the thing Jerry, I don't really want to try to make something like that work. I know that any kids we had would be fine, but they may have to face the pressures of knowing someday. It isn't worth the chance. We are young, will always have each other, and we will both find the right person to be with one day."Mostly they kept it light that week though. They spent a lot of time exploring much more than their bodies too. Emily and Jerry truly had fun and hundreds of great memories. When. I uncovered my face and saw my friend biting her lip, staring at my striped underwear while her hands traced the waistband. My breathing had picked up and my heart somehow pounded harder. I licked my lips and jokingly asked her if she knew how much I loved her then. She looked into my eyes and smiled. "You're about to love me more," she said sternly. "Now stay still." With that, she lifted my legs and completely removed my underwear in one swift motion. I was very conscious of the fact that I.