"Good." What pills?" Daddy narrowed his eyes and Jilly shrugged."Special girl vitamins," she replied. "Do my boobs look bigger?" I don't think I have ...to worry about having twins," I said with a giggle, but deep down in my tummy, I sorta wished I did. Like if Robert would somehow ever want to kiss me..."Virgin!" Jilly smirked."Give her a break," Julie sighed. "At least Janey's smart." You're very smart," Mom agreed, patting my hand. "Eat your peas." Who's a virgin?" Daddy looked around the. . so did they. They all made good sloppy drunk couples. Haha, I know I sound like a bitter bitch, but I was just in a weird mood.I knew that they all thought I was just on the rebound, and sure ... I'll have to admit that I was. But even if Luke and I had not just ended, I would have still hooked up with him ... this guy was hot!"Luke kept saying he wanted to talk," I said, staring down at her comforter."Really?" Amanda looked up. She was reading a forward online. "And..." And what?" Did you?". I couldn't face the army myself. I wanted to get away from living it at home day in day out, being treated and punished as soldiers at home. We were k**s for Christ sake! There is a big difference between whipping a squaddie for not keeping his kit in order and thrashing me because my school shirt was on the floor!I have always felt very protective towards Adam, not just because of Dad, but also because he is still very young, even for his age and there are a lot of men out there who would take. By the end of the shower, I was weak and shaking, but I managed it on my own.As I dried my hair, I was a little amazed by it. The gray hair I used to have was very coarse, sort of wiry. But this felt just like my normal hair, soft and silky with just enough curl to give it movement. It was very odd to see myself in the bathroom mirror. It was like being trapped in stranger's body. I'd never been this thin before. Everyone in my family carried extra weight and I had always wondered how it would.