For me it was just the opposite. As I smoked all night, I wentcold turkey at work, and I ate to cover my cravings. My reduced lungcapacity and seden...tary computer hobby quickly led to a weight increase.I stopped dating entirely and I focused on being Sara instead.After two years of this behavior, I knew I had to make a change. Workwas getting intense and my late night sessions were affecting my job. Iquit both hobbies and started working out. It took me about six monthsto get back into. Zane looked at them and knew. And it was true. Zane had a gift. He looked at you and knew what you desired most, and he made you believe he could get it for you. But in the end he always left you emptyhanded or brokenhearted. That and your pockets lighter. Not that he was bad or something, not really, to him that was just the way the world is. As an expression of the way he was abandoned as a k**. And it became a driving force in his adult life.No one shed a tear when he left the travelers. Ashley gasped, but it was less of a pleasurable tone.“Relax,” Hideki assured her. “Relax.”Ashley felt a small stabbing pain inside her.“Just relax,” she heard one reporter say softly.Ashley relaxed as best she could as he pushed himself in deeper.“Do I hurt you?” he asked.“No,” she lied, as she momentarily regretted her situation.He pushed deeper and she let out a soft whimper. He placed her hand on her clit and had her rub it as he slowly fucked her.“So tight you are,” he declared.He pressed. "Adeen," I say. She has taken me slightly by surprise with the prompt arrival of the first stroke."Adeen" she echos – and then continues "Adeen, spaseeba Gaspazha! That's right isn't it?" Da, Gaspazha." I know what is coming next. There is no escape from a lack of obedience to the correct form of address to my mistress."What should I do?" You must begin again, Gaspazha." Pazh' alsta, rabinya. I shall."I wait for the second stroke, but it will be merely the first "official" stroke. Neena's.