" Rachel decided to make a phone call to Randy. Randy was her best customer, and one of the few men she allowed to have anal with her. She knew Ran...dy was real smart and would be able to help her read the contract too. Plus he was real nice, and she needed someone to be with her tonight. Randy agreed to drop by. Later as Randy sat reading the contract and shaking his head, he'd occasionally pause and say, "Rachel, you're really fucked." "But can't we just cut this nasty thing off? Surely that. It's knowing that it's accurate. It's knowing that when I step in front of a mirror that is what I'm going to see. It scares me every time. [quiet] You were talking about yesterday, about when we were here, before we stopped, what I said.D. Yes.J. Every morning - Every morning I think my life is normal. That's not what I mean. I mean - I think everything, all this, you, this body, this hospital, was all just a long nightmare. I think everything was a dream. When I wake up I think I am Henry, I. Every make-out session that his hand didn’t go down the front of my pants, every time he didn’t unzip himself and try to guide my head in that direction, he saw that as some sort of deposit in a long-term interest-bearing commitment account, and that account would be cashed in on a wedding night sometime down the road. Basically the message was he was sacrificing now to show me how devoted to the idea of permanence with me was, but once that permanence had a name -- and I had his name -- he. Sometimes I would leave the laundry door cracked open when she showered, hoping they would come through and see her... not sure they ever did. I went out every night after work to walk the dog and peep on her running around our place, curtains and blinds wide open, full length window in the bathroom and all. She's a plant freak and says she likes the light and has never closed her blinds, not even at night. She's joked that over the years all of her neighbors have probably seen her naked. It.