”Justin opened the top drawer, smiled, and pulled out the lubricant and something else. I blushed. I forgot my few sex toys were in that drawer al...so and he was holding up my anal beads.“Interesting,” he grinned mischievously at me. “These will be fun to play with another time.”Justin put the pink beads back in the drawer and took out the lubricant and laid it on top of the nightstand. I had used various lubricants and found I liked Lynx anal lubricant the best. It was a water-based. When in doubt, think of sex. I've never been laid. Masturbated, sure, but never sex. I've given a hand job and blow job or two, but those don't really count 'cause I didn't get anything out of it.I imagined some nice stud feeling me up. I'd want him to first fondle my breasts. Foreplay is important, you know. I would give him a hickey or two. Then he'd take off his shirt and I'd see how he was build like a Greek god. He'd reach down and finger me until I was wet enough to take him. I would undo. Scared that my situation would get worse, but, more scared that you would actually reject my love, which would crush what little spirit I had. There was also a social aspect sweetheart, the love I had, wasn't socially acceptable, well, at least toward you people would frown. I wanted nothing more than to pull you close, kiss you softly, and hold you as we walked through the mall or somewhere else. Knowing how society works, that couldn't happen. I would have been seen as something horrible,. If anyone else is going I will be ready to suck and fuck.” I figured that was pretty much to the point and if guys were going to be there they could come find me to get their nuts off.Friday finally came and I was dizzy with anticipation all through my work day. My wife would already be gone by the time I got home so as soon as I got home I jumped in the shower and shaved my lower half, leaving my legs, ass and pussy nice and smooth. I always kept my pubic hair trimmed and flirted with the idea.