.I...really?"Beth: "Yes. Of course he didn't give details, but he told me about itall. He was feeling guilty I guess. And he knew you would tell me on...eday anyways."Me: "So, you knew? Well?"Beth: "I can't say I was thrilled about it at all. But he also told mejust how much you loved me and how you would talk about me all thetime. Also how you helped him out with his, uh, situation. I'll behonest, I was pissed off. I didn't know what to do but Eric calmed medown and explained it all to me. That. .." But nothing. You either choose a suit we can afford and try to get a job or I'm leaving you. I've had enough of not having money and having to support you. You can get a job as a woman for a while until we've saved up some money then you can buy some men's clothes and get a man's job."So I found myself in the changing room trying on a succession of skirt suits in feminine cuts and colours. I asked Diane to pick me out a trouser suit but she said that the one I tried on didn't make me look. She was passionate and innocent at the same time, a rare combination. Her hair was like silk in his hands and he felt a wave of desire covering everything else. He let the wave drown him and he touched her breast...That moment she stiffened and she tore her mouth away. She was looking at him with fear and regret. That regret drove him insane."Don't look at me like that!" He knew that he was shouting but he was not able to stop it."James, I'm sorry ... I shouldn't..." What? Kiss me? Don't worry. "There was a long moment of hesitation...a moment filled with fear, trepidation and yet, a moment that was filled with such excitement. Amanda leaned forward and kissed me...tenderly, on my lips. My lips opened, ever so slightly...and our first kiss became more intense; our tongues met. We began to probe...tenderly, nervously...like if we were teenagers kissing for the very first time. Then, our confidence seemed to step forward...our tongues began to dance together.Amanda broke the kiss. .