She asked if Lucy was ‘stretching’ my Willie and told her that boys really liked it. Mary told Lucy she had been ‘stretching’ her older broth...er's Willie since she was about 8 and that it now ‘stuck out’ a lot. Her brother was now 13. Mary explained what she did. She also said that he made her nice by rubbing her 'pleasure spot' and asked whether Lucy had her pleasure spot rubbed. Lucy replied that she did not know she had a pleasure spot. Mary had put her finger between her own legs and said. "Will you stop that? You have nothing to be sorry about. I'm sorry I can't do anything to take the pain away." Nobody can," she said, softly. For several minutes, we held to each other without speaking. "She left me a note," she continued. "She said she couldn't keep doing this...whatever this was supposed to be. I never saw her again, never heard from her, and couldn't find her when I went looking for her."It finally dawned on me. "I must remind you of her," I said. She nodded. "You look a lot. ” She is silent for a few moments and then she asks, “Will you help me to break it, Daddy? I don’t want anyone else to do it because I don’t want them to hurt me. I want you to be my first.”I am completely shocked, although this is not entirely unexpected after what we just did. We are still lying in opposing directions so I rise up on my elbow to look at her. The lightning flashes have diminished so I don’t get to see much in the dark. “I don’t know, baby girl, it’s a very big decision …… and. I hope Caleb and I can have boys and girls and that you’ll help us teach them how to be young men and women.”“You’ve got to keep all this private, you can’t be letting others see you getting in and out of bed with no clothes on. You both need to make sure your mommas don’t see you or find out about how you sleep. Abigail, you need to be sure your daddy never knows either. He may turn his back, as long as you don’t get too wild, but he’ll have your hide if you make a show of it.”“Marshal, you’re.