She squeezes my hand, "wait here, I'll get the keys. I think I left thebag in the living room."I am left lying there for what seems like ages feeling ...a complete div.That night we cuddle (me back in those damn Hello Kitty PJs). Julia fallsasleep holding me in her arms. I think about slipping out to the spareroom for a wank as I am in desperate need of some release. Her arms aremuch bigger and stronger than mine now and the only way I can break outis by waking her. I lay awake for a long time. At home we decided to slum it for lunch with peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and milk. Then we luxuriated by the pool to soak up some rays. I was feeling a bit frisky so I picked Cathy up off the lounge and threw her in the pool fully dressed. Well, at least that's what I intended, but, she got hold of my arm so tight that her momentum pulled me right in after her. We both surfaced sputtering and laughing our silly heads off. She gave me one of her mischievous looks and charged after me as I. Just-too-nice.”Suddenly, her words didn’t hurt anymore; the ones that she uttered and those that she left me pondering over all those years ago before we parted.I contemplated her words and rolled them around in my head, ‘too nice, too fucking nice.’“Bye, Melissa,” I shouted as I closed the door tight.I walked quickly to my car and drove home.That was when the guilt started to descend upon me, making me realise that what I had done to my life, and to my wife, was unforgivable.Melissa was a. So I just said ‘Mom. Trust me! Please? Gotta go. Love you.’ She jumped in again quick though. ‘Oh. I almost forgot. One more thing.’ I was going to hang up anyway when I heard her say ‘From John.’ So I stayed on the line. ‘What was it Mom?’ ‘Well like I said he was just here. And just before he left he said that if I talked to you tonight I should pass on a message.’ ‘Yes?’ My heart raced a little. ‘He said the T-nodes. You know those things you had in your tits?’ And since when did she refer.