I went to several parties as a girl and everyone just thought it was a blast how "cute" I was. This wonderful realization would be short lived as the ...hormones namely testosterone kicked my male development into high gear. I was soon developing into a man's man.This development was only on the outside. On the inside I was still a very feminine person. The upside is I was turning into a fine looking young man the downside however is my possibility of ever truly passing was becoming evident.. " Then he realized what he had said and blushed. "I mean...ummm..." I leaned forward and stood up and said, "I know what you mean. But thanks for the complement." I then headed to the kitchen to start getting dinner ready. I stopped and looked back just before I turned the corner and caught my son watching me. I stepped into the kitchen and my heart was beating fast! He thinks I'm the hottest Mom around and he was watching me walk away! Oh my! I heard him pounding his way up the stairs. He's so. She would only let me have the one because she said I was carrying the gun. It was very late, about eleven o’clock, and extremely dark outside when a car pulled into the farmyard. Kathy told me that the man driving it was one of her father’s people, he wasn’t introduced to me, as it wasn’t prudent to know too many names. Kathy and I got into the car and it sped off into the night. ‘Now, listen,’ the driver said. ‘Whatever happens now, hold your nerve. Say nothing and don’t react whatever. “You could whip me.”“You like that too much. That would be a reward.”“I don’t mean whip me like that. I mean really whip me.”“Or, I could leave you to feel guilty about it.”She glanced up at me with sad, hang dog eyes. Since the reprogramming allowed her to do things of which I might not approve, it also allowed her to feel guilty about them. Andy did feel guilty about this. I knew that. Is feeling guilty the ultimate punishment?“Feeling guilty is something I hate. It means I have angered or.