She had tried and he ahd pushed her away saying he wanted her to be alive by his side.She paused and asked if I could have it in my heart to sleep wit...h Lou. Give him some pleasure. I was kind of confused. sleep with my neighbor? sleep with someone almost 90? What if I killed him?Nan teared up and I just had to say yes. She was my friend.Nan called Lou into the room and asked him to make us some cocktails. He did as told and brought back icy glasses of scotch. We all drank, listening to. Their performance instruments were already at the hall, locked in an instrument room and under the strict control of the Hall's Maestro. There they would adjust to the Hall's environment, and they too would be ready to perform when the time came. As we were getting ourselves ready for the evening, we could hear the sounds of their practice instruments coming from Thistle's room. Not really playing anything, just familiar background, like the sound of one's own breathing.Cor and I took a long,. Her mouth curved into a smile as she took my hand. ‘I’m sorry darlin’,’ she said, her Southern accent a comforting purr. ‘Really. I mean it. I’m glad you told us. I can tell you needed to talk to someone. And honey, you can’t hold it all in. You look so much more relaxed now that you dished.’ ‘Totally,’ Sarah interjected. ‘I feel it,’ I confessed. ‘Dude, we knew you’ve been holding out on us,’ Sarah continued. ‘There’s been something wrong with you since the beginning of the semester. I’ve. He fell twenty feet or so. He was hanging by a single rope."She became very somber; I could see her eyes tear up a bit."I tried to reach him, but he was afraid for me. I told him to hold on. But he said it was too dangerous for me to try and rescue him. He told me to stop. But I wouldn't. I kept climbing towards him. I slipped a little, but I could have made it. If only he'd have trusted me enough. But he didn't. So he cut his rope and fell. To protect me."All I could think of was, my God, what.