So she had come to party to cheer herself.. She doesn’t remember what happened in party as she got drunk and I made her smoke weed.. So few messages... exchanged.. I started liking her.. It took us almost a month..We were in love… We started speaking about our sexual desires..Both were horny and had good experience.. .One day we decided to meet…I booked a service apartment for one night . She lied at home that she has some college vacancies going out of manipal and she was with me and service. I created a noose at one end and the other end I tossed over the beam and secured it with a slip knot. I’d estimated the necessary length for my purpose.Sitting myself up on the bed, I pulled my chair up on top of it and sat in it. I put the noose over my head and around my neck. I closed my eyes praying that I wouldn’t suffer too much before I lost consciousness. I let myself fall out of my chair.I was swinging and trying to get at the rope to undo it, but I couldn’t. I would be dead in. "Chill Alex, " cautioned Common Sense Alex. "She's worried about you.If she didn't care, she wouldn't give a fuck what you did."If that was true, I thought, she had a funny way of showing it.I was still fuming when I got to the bus stop. Fortunately for Tyler,he kept his distance and his mouth shut while we waited for Sarge. Itmust have been obvious I was in the mood for blood. Though the bus wasso full kids had to jam together in the back, or triple up in the otherseats, no one asked to. Iwas a afraid he'd start thinking of me as some kind of walking blow-updoll. If he starting thinking that, my every Tasha instinct told me thatsooner or later he'd get bored with me.So I replied, "Among other things." Did you always want to be a girl?"This was another question I had to think about. The answer was that, no,I had never even considered the possibility. I was perfectly happy asRyan and my only fascination with women before Bikini Beach had been tofind an attractive girlfriend. It.