And he’s gone. Just like that. My world instantly seems to cave in on me. I can’t even think. All I know is that a huge part of my heart has just ...been ripped from my chest. Now what? I don’t even know what to do. To start with, I throw myself on the bed for a good, long cry. After an hour of tears, I realize this self pity can’t last. It’s pointless, a waste of time. I have to focus on something. I step into the shower, as hot as I can stand it, and focus on the feel of the water. Warming,. We were finally going to meet in person. I arrived at the meeting spot first and I didn’t have to wait long. When his truck pulled into the parking lot, my entire body had a physical reaction, heat radiating from deep within. It was as if my entire body knew I was getting laid soon.My heart pounded so hard that it felt audible, my palms were slick with sweat, and I was a literal hot mess. I calmly reminded myself to relax. I secretly hoped my nervousness would not send him running back to the. They were just here for coordination purposes.Next to them was a Captain from the 'Red Tigers', the Attack Helicopter unit (UH-1, Huey) that was supporting us. He was followed by another Captain from the 'Black Horse', the Support Helicopter Unit (CH-47s) that was supporting us. The Black Horse had supported us in Luang Phrabang also. (See Amulets III)Following them was a CWO 4 (Chief Warrant Officer grade 4) representing Peppergrinder's assets at Takhli RTAB (Royal Thai Air Base). There was a. My father and mother had the worst argument of their married life that night. The next day, Dad took me to get a burr hair cut. He also changed to another company where he almost never had to be on the road again. I went back to sleeping in my own bedroom. For the first month or so, I missed the dress up games that mother and I had played when dad was out of town. Over the next few years, however, I almost forgot about them as dad took me to ball games and other masculine activities absorbed my.