An ex-boyfriend turned out to be a psycho when I dumped him and he blackmailed me into doing stuff I still regret. I felt so trapped and vulnerable, I... didnt think I could turn to anyone. Eventually I got help and got out the crazy situation but its left me with serious trust issues. Sometimes I get scared these things may come back to haunt me and ruin things for me but so far so good! Lets hope it stays that way. Fingers crossed! Jamess story Dreading my 30th birthday Ive become a party. If you think that yourbeing a girl sucks now, just wait until tonight!" And what - May I ask? - is going to happen tonight?" Didn't I tell you?" No, Ackkie! You most certainly did not!" Then, maybe I ought take care of that little oversight of mine right now." Yeah! Maybe you should!" Well, tonight, as soon as it gets dark, your addiction is slatted to kickin." What addiction? Just what in the hell are you talking about, Ackkie!" What I am taking about, mistress, is your addiction to semen.". Then he proceeded to ram his finger inside of me. He worked his finger on the outside of my hole first then slid it in a few times. He would go on to repeat this a bit. I already through this was amazing. Then I felt more fingers, and started breathing heavily. I was wishing he would lick my hole , but there was already a lot of Vaseline in there, and I could tell he just wasn't going to be down for this. I just enjoyed the rush of feeling my ass cheeks spread out like that, and his fingers. .. I was positive she was doing it unconsciously."I lived in an apartment with two other models near Crotona park ... we shared the rent ... and we all worked for the same agency."I nodded, "But you were born and raised in England?"She looked away."Well, were you?"She stopped playing with her hair. "Yes, I was born in London." Why'd you leave?"She suddenly looked at me as if I were an idiot. "I got a job offer to be a model here."I waved my hand, dismissing her statement. "Yes, yes I know that,.