. I came back to talk to Beth and she said no problem it’s big enough don't worry. I didn’t. I said look you shower and I’ll pop down the bar te...xt me when you’re out and ready, then we can swop...ok she said...shit wish she'd asked me to wash her back by golly I would have done more than that, she was very short but had an hour glass figure, a smile to die for, a great sense of humour and fabulous tits, oh yes shaved pussy too, told you we had very intimate chats, i even knew her fantasies.I. She combed my hair into asingle braid. She applied lipstick, bindi, kajal and put some nice earhangings of gold color, bangles and a nice pearl necklace. I lookedgreat. Rahall also admired me a lot. Rahall wore a denim shirt andjeans. Mom said we looked like a married couple. She took some snaps ofus and then Rahall took some snaps of me with mom.We set off on his bike. It was almost dark and so I felt a bitconfident. He drove us to a central park which was one of the biggest inthe city and was. I don't remember me crying before that time, I always felt it was giving people more information than they needed, so I had early on taught myself not to give in to such. But the crying I did after the separation must have gone a far way filling up that hole. Yeah, that separation made me a real danger on the road, and as I told you, crying and me found us a real tight relation those years.I'd read all those macho stories on the net and at times I felt the allure of them too, loading that gun. My sentimental side got the better of me. But no more. I’m done with this mess. This is a clusterfuck of the worst possible order!“I feel sick ... I feel dirty ... I feel ... used. And that pales compared to how Karen must feel right now. Well, Karen, how do you feel? What do you honestly want? Do you want to leave Jill? Do you want marriage counseling? Do you want ... monogamy? What is it that you want? It’s been far too much about what Jill wants ... I think that you should ... and must stand.