Melanie and I sipped our tea and chatted for a while about the success of the Spirit landing, and how our classes were going. Melanie is one of the to...p students of her class. I'm also doing fine, but not quite at that level.It had been pretty exciting, cheering the signal of a successful landing at Kresge, but shortly after midnight we both decided we were too sleepy to stay up for the videos. I walked her back to Harvard.Melanie took a long sip of her tea and changed topics. "So, how's your. Ever since I started university I've lived on campus, which is about two hours from my moms house. I don't get home much any more but whenever I do it's usually a weekend, which means church. Moms not overly religious or anything but she's always at church on Sunday, which means I was always at church on Sunday when I still lived with her. And that's where Ray comes in.I've known Ray since we were both around 5, we've been friends for so long that we think of each other as brothers, though. I was questioned about what happened and was then asked to leave. Apparently, violence, even in self-defense, is not permitted.I went home and called my mother at work to let her know what happened. She told me not to worry about it and that we would talk about it when she got home. What I really appreciated was that a male friend accompanied me on the ride home. He reminds me of myself as a young man. He’s cute, funny, and respectful. He’s also the kind of guy, as I was, who often gets tossed. I could feel the eyes of the audience boring into me, and I was so incredibly embarrassed. I had been so self-conscious about us being the newbies in this place full of experienced dominants and submissives, and now here I was, lying hypnotized on the floor.But I was also desperately turned on. I didn't really know why, at the time, I just knew that I wanted release, but also that I was afraid to show the audience how excited I was. That's why I was so insistent that Jenny and I were leaving.