I shared the apartment cleaning equally with Lily for now. I wanted help with it, but I never planned to let her simply take it over. I wanted her to ...know that I was going to pull my weight even with the baby to care for.Our neighbors across the landing were Darlene and Dick Rasmussen. Dar’s sister wrote a cookbook and she gave me a copy. I started at the front and tried pretty much every recipe. My cooking was improving steadily. I’d never been a very good cook in my first life. For most of. “And it is a reality I love. I often imagine myself on an island like this when I masturbate at night.”“I know,” he replied. Then he added, “Your browser history tells me all about what you like and don’t like, including where you fantasize about being when you are jilling off in the middle of the night.”Marcella’s breath was now coming in almost gasps. Her body was bouncing on the leather table– or as it was in her mind, on the warm sand of the Carribean isle. “Please... please... please...”. We were all arrested and dragged to waiting vans. This seemed like a lifetime ago but it's only been six months. I think of the Indian and how he was not even given the opportunity to have one final orgasm. I lost sight of him in the confusion as it became every man for themselves. We were flogged and called every vile name imaginable. They went about their task with a wild glee. It was designed to degrade and humiliate us. But the blow of a baton woke me from my daydreams. The guards enjoyed. He picked them up; they were the same pink cotton pair that he had used the day before. Now washed and clean, they were ready for him to exert his fantasy upon. Somehow, it didn’t seem appropriate now but he still clung on to them to enjoy their softness. He went downstairs after a while and switched on the television to help pass the time. Every few minutes he would look at his watch to see how much closer the time was to four-thirty. The time passed so slowly. He also constantly thought.