A little cardboard envelope with the word "Durex" printed on it. Oh, for you folks down in the Antipodes, I'm told Durex is or was the name of the big...gest selling brand of sticky tape down there. Whether that's true or not, unfortunately Durex is the name of one of the leading, or most famous, brands of contraceptives in the UK.Now as I'd had a vasectomy after our youngest was born seventeen years before, I couldn't see that Carol had any reason to have Durex in the house. Strangely you might. He claimed to not been thinking about it either. But he had started to after seeing the action on the screen. Turned out the time I had seen him before was his first and he'd almost left when the first movie had ended. It was seeing a guy openly jerking that made him decide to return and to jerk off himself. Having me able to watch was a turn on for him too. On the screen a young woman was giving a blow job. The k** sighed and asked me if I'd ever had one. He said "me too" when I told him I'd. Sam, for you I'll try real hard." That's better." I told her stepping back. "Now let's see if I can find Maria."I found Maria where Pat told me I would. She was bent over with her back toward me but I could see a polishing rag in her hand which she was using to apply wax to one of the many mahogany vertical balusters attached to the banister handrail. She was dressed in another of the same thin material dresses I had seen her wearing the previous day and the dress did little to hide the. "Atonement is LONG, LONG overdue, my brothers and sisters," I remember him saying so many times; and this was true. More was going to be required, much, MUCH more fundamental was the next step for whites to take if the sins of their fathers were to ever begin to be assuaged.In fact, 'The Family' ministry was that next step for myself, and for my wife.She and I both knew that in taking this path, that our lives would be very different from what they had been before; and though she and I would.