I hear in my mind her voice telling me how foolish I am. “You listen only to surface,” she says, “you do not look beneath. Always it is needed t...o look beneath, to pierce through many layers to truth, do not stop at one or two or even more, go all way to base where truth lies.”But this day I do not do. I go to many layers, but there is still more beneath all and there I do not see. M’kamba has shame for me.M’kamba. She is dead, so many years ago I cannot understand. My children are dead, and the. I came almost immediately.The release was fantastic. My thoughts were horrible. My first time and I did everything wrong. Did Jenny come? Was she even aroused? I was embarrassed.Jenny drew my body up to her and gently kissed me on the lips. Jenny said in a quiet voice, “I did a very unfair thing to you and I want to talk about it now. I knew that you had little sexual experience; it’s not hard to spot. Maybe this was even your first time?”She looked at me and I nodded my head.“I think you’re a. I'll be down in a 'ogenblik'." (That means instantly), and then half naked, she disappeared and reappeared with Judy."Nice to meet you," introduced Judy and stuck out her hand. I shook it, studying her carefully. 50-ish, light brown lady, probably from a Caribbean origin, chubby, almost fat, smiley, pretty and quite glamorous. Even though she was black, she was just light enough to detect her blushing. "I just had to meet you, after all Eileen told me about you." I gave Eileen my stern look. "I. .?” Before he had time to finish the landlord turned quickly on his heels, picked up a glass from a shelf and held it to the Lambs Navy Rum optic, allowing the contents to flow into the glass. After repeating the action he placed the large glass of dark rum on the counter. “One Double Rum,” he said, mumbling something at the television screen before punching the cash register to ring up the price of the drink. He stared at the drink. He looked at the landlord. He feigned a cough, the.