" You know what's really strange. It's only been a few weeks but it feelslike a lifetime ago that I was a boy. I feel like that part of my lifehad bee...n some kind of weird nightmare and I've only been awake for ashort time. Does that make any sense?" Yes, Sweetheart, it does. Now finish getting dressed. You have ahandsome boy downstairs that you shouldn't keep waiting," Mom smiled asshe gave me a hug then turned and headed downstairs.A few minutes later, I slipped into my sandals and was ready. Emma loves this farm. You know how hard she works. Hell, everyone who works here loves this place. Nick turned his back and started to walk down to the other end of the barn, trying to escape Marys words. I know this is hard for you I know how raw this must be, but for Emmas sake&hellip,. Nick turned and marched back to her almost yelling, You dont know anything! How can you? Do you have any idea how it feels to have your heart ripped out? Do you have any idea what its like to look into the. I thought for a moment she was going to say something but she held back.When we left the next day, she did a strange thing. We agreed that our son would drive back with me and she would travel alone in front of me. Even though they were old technology, we had never discarded those old tape recorders and I had taken one of them with me to my business seminar but never used it. I was surprised when she asked for the cassette player.We got back to our home about noon Christmas Eve. Christmas Eve. ” Hearing this the little one turns and looks behind me. Following his eyes I realize I’m the last on in line. No one else is waiting. Shrugging my shoulders I allow him to pull me forward, his mother smiling at me from the group of parents standing on the sidelines. Finally it’s his turn. I watch as he struggles to climb in Santa’s lap, until Santa reaches down and easily lifts him. Once he’s settled he pulls the mans head down and whispers in his ear for several minutes. I watch as Santa’s.