" Ashley!" James hissed at his sister, "Jess was in the loop, but Mark didn't know anything about me or Lilith! I was trying to keep it that way!" Wel...l, sorry! He showed up because I told him it was a matter of life and death; he wanted to know more. I had to tell him something, and it all just sort of came out. I'm not good at keeping secrets, okay? And for the record, Mark seems to have taken it pretty well. He said it 'explained a lot' – whatever that means."James looked over at his. .I'd have to say, at this stage in my life, it's going to be another guy! (No offense intended to any women. Okay?!)But oh my god! There's something about a young man's hard cock in my mouth as I'm sucking it, that just 'does something' to me that I've never felt when with a woman. (Again, sorry ladies! PLEASE don't take what I'm saying as a denigration on your gender; because that is NOT what I'm attempting to do here!) When I'm sucking some young guys cock there's this incredible energy that. The gay sex continuing on TV was multiplying the sexual environment I was so enjoying. I needed it in me. I slid my fingers out and quickly lubed the 7-inch dildo. It hurt as I slid it in a little too quickly. My cock deflated as my ass burned but as I lay there watching the men fucking, my feeling in my ass turned to pleasure as my cock re-inflated. The more I fucked myself, the harder I got. I explored sensations taking my time and moving it around in me. My mind craving a male lover. She has made quiet a few movies of her getting fucked by some of her male friends, I have been allowed to view a couple of them. She keeps them under lock and key so I can't beat off watching them while she is away. I went on line one night while she was out for the evening and found a company that sells a micro DVR that is motion controlled. They also offer a camera that is motion controlled also. I bought the two and had them shipped to my shop. When they got there I opened them and read the.