Finding no knickers in the way I was able to caress her lovely cheeks, savouring them, cuddling them as I pulled her back towards me. Then I tried to ...undo her shirt buttons but my trembling fingers refused to cooperate leaving me unable to undress her. She did it for me, now standing in front of me quite unselfconsciously. I took one of her already hard nipples and suckled it delicately, my hands once again holding her backside -- feeling her tremble as I now nibbled her teat.She pulled my. It was nice having help, but after I had stopped grieving Ryan's death, I found myself craving a different type of help from Joel.Now, by no means was it an overnight decision. I cried, cursed, and begged God for answers to why Ryan had to die so young for nearly ten months. After the grieving, it took me another month to realize, I needed a guy, and once I realized that I wanted Joel, another three weeks contemplating whether I should speak out, or keep my desires to myself. Finally, I decided. "Needless to say I put another major dent in my credit card but I knewfor sure now that it was worth it. I decided to wait until thefollowing weekend to give him his new clothes. On Saturday afternoonwhile Tom was watching a football game, I went out to the video storeand rented a couple of chick flicks. When the game was over I walkedinto the family room carrying the movies and a couple of glasses ofwine.I sat down next to him and handed him a glass of wine. "I got a coupleof movies for us to. She maneuvered her way out and headed down the street. Cedar Oaks was a large enough town, population eight million. Aside from having the best honey smoked chicken wings, it was one of the best vacation resorts. It had a total of twelve lakes and three rivers. Being sunny three hundred and sixty five days a year, the beaches were always flooded with locals and visitors. The high school where Jessie worked was within walking distance of one of them and on days when the salty air was too.