Every scintilla of my attention was focused on one thing, Jolene. I had an older friend buy the bottle of Southern Comfort and a twelve pack of beer f...or us. He took another twelve pack for his trouble. Around noon, my parents said goodbye. I filled the refrigerator with beer and made sure we had plenty of ice cubes. Then I raced over to Bobby’s house to spread the news. As I ran threw Buster’s back yard, he didn’t even try to chase me. He just lazily watched me pass. As I did, I said to. "Ambrose nodded then turned to the female. "It is good also that you are now free never again to be subjected to the pain and humiliation. I believe that there are a few people out there that would be more than glad to see you."The female's head dropped as she shook it no, "With all that I have done, I am afraid that even you can allow me to remain alive. Many of the things I know, I can never forgive myself for."Ambrose drew himself up to his full height, "If you think, for one moment, I am. Jay phir bhi nahin utha to main uske lund ko sahlane lagi.2 min mein hi Jay uth gaya. Usne mujhe apna lund sahlate huye dekha to bola, lagta hai ki aaj chudwane ka irada hai. Maine kaha, kuchh aisa hi samajh lo. Wo bola, phir aa jao. Itna kah kar kar Jay ne mujhe apni taraf kheech liya. Main josh mein aa chuki thi is liye kuchh bhi nahin bol payi. Uske lund ko haath lagane se mere saare badan mein aag si lagne lagi thi. Jay ne mere hothon ko choomte huye kaha, aur teji se sahlao. Main chup chap. She liked to hit me when I was talking with my friends, then she'd laugh and run away."One day Janine did it, took a half dozen steps and fell dead before I even got turned around. I was the first one to her; I could see she wasn't breathing. I called for someone to run to the teacher and he did. The teacher came and had someone call my mother and 911."From that day to this, my father blames me for my sister's death."At least I was on sure ground. I was pretty sure if Brother Brooks blamed.