Alan has had a long life too, full of many experiences and adventures. But even after his talk with Kennedy and his further actions at sex with the do...g, he still is uncertain about things. And how could he not be? He has spent his whole life being told that certain things were wrong. And then again, his sexual relationship with his mother was wrong to so many people.He needs someone to talk to. No, he needs someone else to talk to. If there is one person that might be able to understand him is. That is, until the night she made the two attempts to take Davik’s life and killed Gwen in the process. I have grieved during our journey. Though the pain of her loss is still there, it is not as bad as I thought it would have been. The anger I felt was forced out in the fights with Davik, while the emotional connection was helped by our time talking and training. Now I am conflicted and placed in a position that I never thought I would be in. I never thought I would feel any attraction to a. " Then I added, as she laid there staring up at me: "It's just sex, Melanie. Nothing more. I promise." You mean he gives you a blow job?" Yes," I said, glancing into her face for a second.She didn't respond for a while. I could see that I was going to be late in meeting Jack again if I didn't leave soon."I see," Melanie eventually said."I'm, I'm not gay! Okay? It's just sex. Like I said. It's just a blow job; an anonymous blow job at a glory hole. He's nice. He's clean! There's no strings. You feel aware as you sit down just how wet you are, but even more aware that people may be looking at you. You can feel yourself tensing slowly around the egg inside you. Its vibrant pulsing making you feel breathless and exhilarated."How do you feel? Are there eyes on you? Wondering why you're acting the way you are, can you feel that pleasure running through your body, knowing there's nothing you can do to control it in this public forum. How about this?"I turn it up to its maximum setting.