I felt this jolt of electricity through my body and my cock jumped in my pants. I later thought it was just some random weird feelings ...and not gay. {I later knew different} The 3 of us talked about sports and nature and sometimes sex. The younger was still a virgin and the older R. bragged he fucked 2 girls. I treated each as adults and nothing ever happened. I had gay sex as teen but not since and never thought about other males. I did watch some gay porn but really liked. A pure rape. So, why I was looking at her with my cock aroused? I was dominant all of my life, but this crazy moment of sadistic pleasure was new even for me. And I felt strange because part of me wanted her and kids out of my house, so I can bury myself in my shame. But another part was aware that my shame would be much deeper if I kick her out because not that I only rape her, but I was thinking about doing it again, and again. I was totally confused. So, I tried something else. The water would then roll over and scatter onto the shore.The area near the shore was more of a tan color, due to the visible sand at the bottom. As your eye traveled further, the water would become more of an aqua color. Past that I would see streaks of purple, interspersed with blue and aqua. With the pastel blue sky above, and the faint streaks of white clouds, it was indeed a day to be enjoyed to the max. I figured it was the closest thing to being on the ocean for a person like me, who. I told Mick i was going to run a bath, i stepped out of my clothes and left them on the floor, he was downstairs, i poured some bubble bath into the tub and checked the water temperature, with nothing but a towel around me i quickly dashed back into Kerry's bedroom to get something. There was Mick sat on the edge of Kerry's bed, he had my knickers in his hand and was sniffing them. At first i didn't know what to do/say, i was shocked, i was 16 and this was my best friends dad. He looked.