The evening was even worse, it was lucky I had the flat to myself again because I paced up and down and couldn’t settle for a moment. For days and d...ays I’d been living for the moment we’d meet again and now it was getting closer I was more and more convinced that you wouldn’t want me and you’d be so angry and disappointed with me that you’d say something cruel and humiliating to punish me. ‘I thought I was bound to have the dreams again but in fact I had the most awful night. I know people say. ....but they've also not lasted. I'd often noticed xHamster lately but to tell you the truth found the name, -the idea of the hamster, - so cute and friendly that I never thought to join it for the sex.......but was wrong again of course. So I joined it not so long ago, (actually it was yesterday), and have already gone the whole hog - porn-wise. Joined the chat-room, started this writing, disclosed far too much about myself on the Profile and have left my fingerprints on every site. “It’s not like it used to be.” “These things happen sometimes.” And similar answers.That same afternoon I went to visit my dad’s new apartment. It’s a small studio but very clean and organized, because my father is very strict with cleaning.We were there talking for a bit about stuff, and at one point he confessed the real reason of his divorce: my mum cheated on him with a guy a few years older than me. My parents are young (44 years), but even so, my mum is twice the age of that guy.While my. As we danced I savoured the sensations her body sent running through me while at the same time waiting for the right moment to brush my lips over hers. It had to seem accidental and natural, as though it was an unplanned moment that just happened rather than a long awaited first step to bliss. Mum rested her head on my shoulder with a sigh and muttered something and I sensed that an opportunity was at hand, turning my head slightly I asked her what she'd said and as her head lifted a little to.