On the first point I went out of my way often to hold him balls deep without moving and plain out told him to get accustom to my feel. The next thing... was to forget all this lovey emotional stuff and basically treat me like a piece of meat for his pleasure. Now Jay has two gears. There is the early morning foreplay with endless kissing and teasing. He mounts me lovingly, enters tenderly with all consideration and plants his seed deep in an average amount of time. No climax or orgasm for me. "You can't say no to that."My own tears were coming again. I didn't know what to say to make it allbetter; to find the right path for everyone. It was all too impossible."I do understand," she said. "Oddly. I do. Even if none of it seemsreal. I don't blame you. Not really. How could you know how to act andfeel with all this craziness?" I'm so sorry," I said."But you'll understand that I have to walk away."I shook my head."Things have been going wrong for me for a long time. This crap. On the next class as a punishment for missing the first class my teacher did not allow me to choose my project and my partner.I was assigned the project with one of the most gud looking guy of my clas lets call him sexy as I call him now. I was quite dissapointed as I did not get to do my project with my friends.We hadnt had much interaction before. So the days pass by and we didnt paid much attention to our project work. But then the day of project submission came near.It was just a week. " You see? Was I right? You like looking more womanly, but at thesame time you're afraid to look less manly. So you're ashamed ofyour own body. Talk about hangups? That's what we have to breakthrough. Honey, I love what's been happening to your body! That'swhy I've been encouraging it! Down underneath I know you love ittoo! And exercise isn't what matters, the kind of exercise is whatmatters. You've been getting a lot at our Yoga sessions, that'swhy you've been developing a svelte,.