But get an 18-year-old boy in that stupid pink outfit, give him a sex change and I'll finish the job, and if you marry the little sissy, I'll forget... the money I'm due from our forthcoming divorce. "If that doesn't tell you how seriously I don't want you to ever fuck about with another woman's life, or how much I need to make someone else go through what you've put me through then nothing will." She concluded. "You're serious aren't you? I never knew how evil you were," said Jake. "I don't. It was not a sexy look but that of a normal girl this calmed me down for 15 Mins then the shaking started again but worse than before. I brought my knees up to my chest and in this foetal position lay on the bed. It all suddenly hit me like a dam breaking; clearly you cannot experience such a turnaround in outlook and thinking without some time to process it. Then I started to sob and cry and cry and cry. I eve twice hit myself in the testicles and penis, I hated them but the pain stopped me. Pehni te uss nay kaha ahmad mere gutnay main bohat dard ho raha kuch dino se doctor ko b dikaya hain lakin dark kuch kam hee nahee hota main nay jee tu main kiya karon uss nay kaha zara daba saktay ho agar mind na karo tu main nay kaha han jee daba donga uss nay kaha teek hain pir wo double bed par let gai aur main uss kay per daba raha ta wo keh rahi bada acha lag raha hain pir kaha uder tel hain wo zara garam kar k laga do aur mere dard wali jaga ki malish kar do main kichen main giya aur tel. If we get weird with each other, thatfriendship will never be the same. I will never be able to see you thesame way," I said honestly."That's going to happen regardless. I would be a man," she saidobviously."Yeah, but, I'll always know I was the one that caused it. And if youbecome really unhappy and depressed about it, I will feel responsiblefor it," I said."I am already miserable. I can't use my voice in public. I hire adamn interpreter for when I go to school," she said."Okay, well,.