And wondered who I could possibly talk with about the whole thing. I found myself afraid to watch it again.Theresa was no good. How do you tell your b...est girlfriend that you're wondering if you're lesbian? Mom--impossible. I found myself wishing I'd had a sister yet wondered if that would have solved my problem. I guess it was inevitable that I should think of Steve.You see, we'd managed the impossible. We'd broken up amicably, realizing we weren't right for each other, then stayed friends. Beca had elected to spend the two weeks we were gone with Joan in Chicago. Nanette was working and holding down the fort at the farmhouse. She was going to go up to see Beca and Joan over the weekend.Livy, of course, had left for service on the fourteenth, eight days before we left for Kansas. They had been pretty weepy days for Rachel. And the rest of us.I was thankful Betty had agreed to drive. It gave all of us who were teens the opportunity to pretend we weren’t adults and let someone else. I could tell that they really enjoyed dominating a white woman, and I enjoyed being submissive to them. I’ve been wanting to try that again ever since.”They were very happy with my admissions, and Coco said, “So you must be on birth control now, to avoid another accident.”I knew I would get them excited when I smiled and said, “Well, no, my husband and I have decided for me to go without protection, and we're willing to take our chances on having another black baby. I loved taking all those cum. I went to bed around midnight and gave thanks for the air-conditioning which allowed me to keep my windows shut to block out most of the noise from next door. Somewhere around 2:00 I woke up for some reason and in the silence of our house I could faintly heard something outside my window. Even Kathy and Rich’s party typically ended by now so my curiosity again got the better of me and I slipped off my sheets and stepped out of bed. Looking out the window, I could hear just hear the voices but.