She wished that she had a girlfriend to care for and love. She felt empty without a woman in her life. She knew that she was almost going to lose cont...rol if she saw a sexy woman tonight. No matter how hard she could try, it would be inevitable. She hadn’t even had an orgasm since her first woman, no matter what she did. That too was driving her crazy.As Stephanie walked up to the bar the bartender, who happened to be a woman, asked Stephanie what she wanted. Stephanie ordered three shots of. Then kissed her in the lips. Her hand was grabbing my hair while I was smooching her back. Vivek was watching our action behind her. I waved my hand to call him. He come without making a sound. I took my hand and hold her head and make the kiss more wild. She was totally in that mood. She takes at least 10second to realize that some other person is grabbing her boobs from back. When she realize she try to get out of the kiss and turn. Her whole body worked and she get out of me. She turn back. .. second thoughts. Regrets.The next day, Pat and I went for a ride, just to get out of the house. Pat said she still thought she could get Dave to give semen to impregnate me. I didn't say that I wanted him to give me semen the old-fashioned way.Riding in the country. The wreck. Screams, then nothing ... I lost Pat. I thought I'd lost everything.Dave. Carlita. They took me in.We got a new bed. There is a hole in me where Pat was supposed to be, but I was surrounded by love in Carlita and. But the thoughtthat seemed strongest was an emotional one. Inwardly, I had beenoverwhelmed by my reaction. A desire to feel the submissive side I didn'teven know I had. It had swept over me, giving me a fire that burned, asexual fire that made me accept what he did because of how it made mefeel. Somehow being humiliated just stoked the fire. This was soconfusing and counter to all that I had known before. I just accepted itfor now, because I didn't understand my feelings at all. Once I had.