I was thinking that I am been used and everything has happened but still there is a big trouble. I had no one to share the problem. I spend 2 3 days t...hinking what to do and whom to contact. In the end I had no options left except to Richi. I decided to give my body to him and earn the money to pay off and then I will change my house and everything.Next day I went to him. We sat in the room next to department store. Richi was staring me like I was naked I front of him. I said I have a problem. He told Ellen that she had made the right decision. Hisonly request was if he was going to be woman, he wants to be attractiveone. He wouldn't complain if he came out as pretty.Elated to know that she had not guessed wrong, Ellen ran with it, playinga modern-day version of doctor Frankenstein. Even with the doctorsreining Ellen in somewhat, her wife still left the hospital with enoughfeminine assets to get a job at the girly bar, Twin Peaks.He was way past pretty. And had a figure to die. The movie had started, had it been that long already. Forcing herself to pay attention to the movie she found herself relating things in it to her life. Near death, lose of love, pain, anger, any little thing she could relate to herself. Her mind wandered yet again to the way out. Why did it have to be so hard on her, all she wanted was a little peace of mind? Did she really have to get it this way? Visions of a tall building danced through her head. Maybe that’s the key out Darcy thought.. Then I walked onto the street again, and it was the intimidating rush of the city itself, hurling itself into my face, that had me feeling guilty at my laziness. If I were going to win, to keep my promises to Martha about growing up, skipping out on Fiore wouldn't help. The city was a challenge, and as I watched people and traffic hustling around me I felt the grip of ambition creep over me and gradually take control. I remember saying adamantly to myself as I walked: You guys can't beat *me*.