Wanted it more than anything. That’s why I was going to force it; tonight, by my own hand.Then, would you like to change the lives of those you hold... dear?I hadn’t expected another message.The faces of the two women I lived with—my aunt and my younger sister—surfaced momentarily from the depths of my selfishness, but I closed my eyes to them.Aunt Riley was getting by just fine without my help, and Jessie—You’re running away from it.—was better off without a useless brother like me. I selected. But I was too scared to do anything about it. Not that my mom would besome kind of monster, I'm sure she would come around to the idea, butI've looked up the stats. For every girl like Jazz Jennings, there aredozens, maybe hundreds who arent as lucky.It can get pretty bad out there for trans folks. And even though Canadais better than some places in the world, doesnt mean there is no riskof really bad stuff happening to me.So there I was, between a rock and a hard place, too scared to try andbe. Then I yanked his arm out of socket, which is a trick my Dad taught me. Alex isn't like that, not usually. But he really liked Lisa and she was dumping him and he didn't know how to handle it. About a week later, he handled it by trying to drown himself in the Wicomico River. He wanted God to punish him for hurting Lisa. He was under for eight minutes before I could get him out. I think God wanted me to swim fast so that I could be ready for that one moment. After that, Alex turned to me for. Of course I twirled her hard enough that everyone could see up her skirt without bending over and with the shear white panties she was wearing everyone could see every line and fold of .... sweet pussy and ass. I was hard thinking about the view everyone was getting. I even saw two woman licking their lips as .... pussy went parading by.When the song ended, we walked back to our booth and sat down. Of course the way .... sat down and spread her legs as she scooted across the seat would catch.