I definitely still desired him bodily. Listen to me now, don’t you judge me. He may have treated me abominably but I am still a woman and know a goo...d looking man when I see one, even if he was the one that made me lose myself esteem, so keep any judgmental thoughts to yourself! I find him physically attractive and I always did and always will. End of.We made embarrassed small talk, k**s, health, usual stuff. Eventually he came to the point.‘I have been so stupid’ he said. Well that much was. The dining room was taken up by children receiving a lesson on the proper way to eat. I asked if I could join them with a large smile on my face. The children were very intent on making sure that they used the correct fork, so I was able to sit back and enjoy the meal without interruption. I could tell that my mere presence was an issue for the kids, but their governess kept them in line.My reverie was interrupted by a maid letting me know that my bath was ready. Rick made a face at that, and I. So then he oddly told me that he had a gun in his closet and I looked at him and said ?O-kay???? And he said if I wanted to see it I could. I was getting scared and said ?No, that?s okay?. He then squeezed his crotch in his tight black jeans and said ?You like to fool around?? Scared, I don?t know what came over be but I said ?What do you mean?? I was even stuttering. He said ?you and me, we?re gonna fool around?. I kept thinking about the gun and said to him ?I gotta go?. And he said, ?Get. Just don't. Now take that thing back wherever you got it and we'll forget the whole business, okay? But don't ever do anything like that again." And she just turned around and walked off, leaving me standing there in the bush with my mouth open and the piece still in my hand.Oh, sure, I guess you could say that makes this primitive art, all right. Real primitive. But we know about a lot of primitive art, don't we? I mean, the cave paintings at Altamira and Lascaux and some of those other places.