"There's nothing I'd like more," I said, "But from what I've made sofar, this isn't really an option for me." Usually we pay a writer an advance," Cor...rine said, "So that they canfocus on their writing." Advance?" I asked, and she replied by mentioning a sum that to meseemed nothing short of ridiculously large.From that moment on, it didn't take Corrine long to convince me to quitmy job and sign the contract. The next day the balance on my account washigher by that very same sum she had. Then I second guessed myself because there just wasn't enough money coming in, but you've made me feel good about all this again." She said shaking his hand before they all left.Jared chuckled to himself over the hand holding he had to do with Dean Crawford and her lawyer but was happy to appease them and allay fears. Her comments about travel expenses left him sure he knew what the messages on his phone were now. They were probably the travel office and his assistants wanting to confirm dates.. She looked me straight in the eye as she started rubbing me a little. I’m surprised I didn’t pop right there. Ya I’d thought about this before, but it really happening scared the hell out of me. I managed to contain myself as Melissa knelt down and removed my belt and unbuttoned my pants, holy shit. She pulled my pants about half way down my thigh and started stroking my penis, and then she looked up at me as her tongue started caressing my head. Her lips were like velvet when. What am I saying I still love her? I don’t know how she feels but I assume she does feel the same way. I love her and I can’t have her. It is killing me a little more every day. People say it will fade and I know it will but I also know that when I turn 50 or 60 if I was to see her I would crumble. I would fall as madly in love as I am right now. I love you. We were just friends. Our kids plaid together and we would sit outside with all the neighbors for hours on end just having fun drinking.