."Better not rock the boat I figure, don't want my privileges revoked.Poppy, Esse and the others aren't best pleased when I tell them I can'tcoordinat...e costumes with them. I feel especially bad when I hear Peter,Ian, Paddy and Tony have all forked out for tickets. I regret it evenmore now.Julia has me standing on the coffee table as she moves around me puttingpins in for the final adjustments."I can't go out like this!" I whine almost stamping my foot. Julia swatsmy leg and tells me to stand. ” Rachel smiled and replied: “I love you too Ryan and I love fucking those boys.” They showered and slept together that night.The next day after school, Ashley, Andy’s sister, came to our house when mom was out. She was 17 and our schools cheerleading captain. We were surprise by her visit and were even surprise when she asked us to strip. She then spent the next few hours before mom got home teaching Rachel how to eat a pussy and how to do a proper strip tease. Ryan fucked her a few times as. To the untrained, her voice means nothing, but the highness of her voice is deliberate. Seductive, delicate, urging you to come closer. The way her breath shifts when she talks about something she likes, the way she holds on to her vowels just a tad too long, nothing escapes the Panopticon. There’s a note of lust to her voice, she invisibly begs for someone to come and take her in her high, teasing voice. The head register, they call it. Look it up.From viewing her Facebook, I understand that. In the corridor, I'm suddenly alone. The walls reverberate with nothingness. And my tears chose to fall. Great racking sobs. For the love that we'd had, that I shattered; for my big mouth, for your sharp retorts and the shreds of our relationship that are left in this sullen silence, made all the more conspicuous by your absence.I picture you, striding towards nowhere. Your docs hitting the pavement in a steady rhythm, noticing no one. You plunge through people. The same invisible crowd that.