But when I am with him I know I am more alive now than I was as a wife and a mother running my small business. I guess I am technically still a wife, ...but somehow now I think of Geoff as my only husband. I must not call him Geoff to his face or I will suffer his punishment, but that is how I think of him. I cannot say the pain of loosing my children is gone, but Geoff makes me so happy. —- It had not started out like this. It had started with me being terrified of him, I am talking absolute. I knew this was supposed to be an intimate moment, but i honestly didn't feel any spark. I mentally kicked myself and thought, "Shes a hot girl! Why aren't you thinking about grabbing her tits?!"I felt disgusted with myself and to try and make my feelings ignite, I kissed Jessica gently, and she kissed my back. I wrapped my arms around her back and I felt her smiling. I still didn't feel anything. God, what the hell was wrong with me? Here I am, making out with one of the hottest girls in. "Hey, y'all, it's getting late and me and Teresa are going to head out." The girls started kissing each other goodbye n' shit and Ezra and I pulled Tracy to the side. We wanted to know why the speedy exit was in order and why he looked like he had just hit the lotto. "Maaaaan, me and Theresa gettin' ready to take things to the next level. I'm following her back to her place, yo. She's the one; I don't know why I been frontin' for so long. She's everything I've been looking for in a woman and. I took my right hand and slid it down, over her belly and right into her panties. I just kept going, and ended up with my middle finger stuck right between the lips of her pussy. The funny thing was I felt the head of my dick right outside of her panties with the same finger.Well, not so funny. Pretty erotic, in fact.Sandy was breathing hard now. I knew she jacked off in the shower too, but I didn't know how to do it to her, only to myself. So I figured that if it felt good to rub my dick back.