"Rachel moved a couple of them around to get a better look, "Did you have a studio or something, they're very professional," she asked."Just a plain b...ackground and a couple of lights with brollies. I set it all up in an alcove in the library entrance and just grabbed people as they walked past. Some where more willing than others." So what are these ones?" Rachel asked, waving at the few pictures he'd left out."They're the ones I think are the best." He paused, "They're also the ones that are. I really think he is serious. "Come on Nina, let’s go look at those lamps, then I'll send mom to go get the paint," he grins. We walk into my computer room. Karen looks over at us and smiles, then she sees the look on my face. "Nina, honey, what's wrong?" Karen asks. "Nothing, just feeling bad putting all of this work on you and Jacob," I say and Jacob grins at me. I can't believe I'm not blurting out Jacob just came onto me. I have to admit, a twenty-one year old coming onto me is a turn on.. I feel real bad for what theydid to you and a part of me also wants to see them suffer." I grabbedher hand and looked deep into her eyes. "Maybe you could help me geteven with them?" She squeezed my hand tightly and gave me a wink. "Iwill Ariana, but it will have to be after we film the last episode ofseason 4 and return from Paris." We stood up and embraced one moretime. She squeezed my feminine hourglass waist and gave me a soft kisson the cheek. Come on sweetie lets make a salad for dinner. Its not like I dont want to be whole. I just cant hurt anybody inthe process. And since I cant figure out how to be whole without hurtingpeople, I just ..." have decided to hurt yourself, instead."I looked at the floor in response.He came up to me, and put a hand on my shoulder. "What will you do,then, Elizabeth? Go on as you are until you suffer a breakdown, or tryto kill yourself, again? How much pain are you willing to live with?" I can't hurt them. I'm sorry. I just can't Maybe I'm just a.