I also started fantasizing about men as well as women when I would masturbate.When I moved to Dallas at age 15, the house I lived in didn't have a pol...e so I had to hump the floor to masturbate. I would ride my bike to an abandoned model home and inside I found that I could hump a wall that divided the bathtub from the toilet. I hung a sheet that I found there on it and would take off all of my clothes and hump it until I came. I wanted so bad for someone to catch me while I was doing it. I. Of course we wentback through my childhood and adolescence, mining them for whatever cluesthey might provide.It would be very tidy and it would make a good story if I told you thatthere was some "aha" moment or some epiphany where it all came togetherin a blinding flash and I could walk out of Dr. Hansen's office a newperson ready to face all of life's challenges. It would be nice, but itwouldn't be true. When I agreed to see her, I knew that therapy with Dr.Hansen wasn't going to be easy and. She took a step closer. He took a step back."I spoke to Luke," Ray said.She took another step forward. He stood his ground."Dana, just say something for Christ sakes. This is stupid."She looked at him again. She reached out and laid a hand on his arm, letting her fingers stroke along his forearm."Don't touch me," he snapped pulling his arm away."Don't ever touch me again. You don't have that right. You think you can fuck someone else and then touch me. You really are a crazy bitch. You single. I told Pammy that we would probably be away for three months. I would try to blink back at least once a week if I could. Pammy was happy with this. She told me the cousins and the twins were having a lovely time with the printer’s shop, so she doubted I’d have to worry about them.Jim and Rothe were keeping an eye on them, and both were very pleased with the new work ethic of the couples. She reminded me the wedding was in three days and I said that was awesome as I was planning on leaving a.