Its me not you. I love you so so much I hope you know that." Katie said one night before bed. I said ok and played stupid. I knew something was up wit...h her. She has been so distracted on her phone lately. We could be watching TV and she is just staring down scrolling through what I assumed was Instagram or Facebook. I decided to do some investigating that night and 2 things were sure before I fell asleep I would.. 1. have the most confusing boner ever and 2. find out some information about. 00 in the morning. In the meantime the company bar was open and the first drink was on him.I was busting to get home to find out where I stood, but I took it on the chin. We were able to lock our gear in the Q.R.F. room and went to the bar. We got a table for both our teams but the 3 U.D.R. boys wouldn't let us buy, and every time we finished a round, another was set up for us. They were great company and I didn't notice that there was always someone from our crew with me all the time. I didn't. "I have him locked in his carrying-cage in the back ofmy Suburban right this very instant." Oh Susan, you have made my day," I said gratefully. "It's too hot tokeep him locked up in your Suburban," I added as we both got to our feetand began walking toward the front door."I did make him drink four large waters before we left," she said, by wayof an explanation. "And just to be a little mean I filled his pantieswith ice cubes and covered him with a plastic training diaper so he can'tget away. . I am sorry. It is just that when you touch me, I do not wish to control myself. My entire life has been that of me controlling my wants and desires. Ever since the death of my papa, I held back from those around me, remaining both untouched and unloved. I listened and watched as everyone lived around me. I have hidden behind a mask, pretending that I did not want the same things other women wanted, but I do want them. Actually, I want you, Erik! My body aches with its need of you. When you.