Fingers don't count, it only counts if you put your thing in me, your snake." I knew that already. Its just that Bea told me that virgins have a pain ...the first time someone puts something in their kitty, and she said there's a skin thing that has to be broken before you can put anything in." I'm a virgin, Kenny, don't you believe me?" It is a good thing we weren't out in the deep end of the pool, because she took both her hands away from me. It surprised me though, and I swallowed some water. Please forgive me, Commander, for being so blunt.’ ‘Forgiven. No harm done, and forgotten.’ She appeared to want to say something else and I waited for her. Her voice turned suddenly light and fragile and trusting, ‘My husband was a captain in the Marines….’ She pursed her lips tightly, and I noticed she gripped the edge of the table to steady herself. ‘Was…?’ I ventured, when she seemed not to be able to complete her thought. ‘He died in a helicopter accident… three years ago.’ Her eyes were. I stopped and admired the sight of my wife topless in the presence of a strange man. I took a large sip of my Whiskey and then knelt to untie and remove my wife's tennis shoes. I pulled each one off and then removed her socks. I got up taking another swig of my Whiskey. My wife lay back on the mattress, elevating her hips to give me access to her tight jeans. I hesitated but then unfasted the button and lowered the zipper. I reached to hook my thumbs inside her waistband and pulled the jeans. “Fuck,” works I have noticed I say it and “Well, shit,” and “Really!” all come in pretty handy.My youngest daughter has started making lunch for me then texting me to remind me to eat it. Am I missing something here? I haven’t noticed myself skipping too many meals. I’m starting to wonder if there’s things going on around me that I’m not noticing anymore.My wife took my gun away from me this week she said she’s scared of me. I’ve never threatened her even when I’ve been angry. I KNOW that.