After adjusting to his new appearance, Louis left the trailer and set out for the mess hall.The first thing Louis noticed when he started moving aroun...d was that he felt like he, in fact, weighed 800 pounds. His arms and legs felt thicker than tree trunks, and he could feel his two yards of blubber shaking around his waist. Thankfully, he seemed strong enough to walk around without any trouble. Since Louis didn't know where the mess hall was, he realized he'd have to ask someone for directions.. The water came to her waist, making her progress very slow. She tried to go faster, but the current almost sent her crashing into one of the barbed wire fences. She only just managed to balance herself in time. The bars were over a inch long, and would have caused serious damage to her unprotected flesh.It took her over twenty minutes to get across the river, twenty minutes she knew she could not afford. The girls had only a two hour head start at the beginning of the trail, and she knew her. Janet and I sat on a bench in the almost, cold morning air.“So you do this every morning?” Janet asked.“Unless it’s pouring rain, or snowing,” I replied.“You are still a beast,” she suggested.“Hardly, I’m just trying to keep the ability to move around freely,” I said.“You must have some really good drugs,” she suggested.“Yeah, Tylenol and Aleve,” I replied.“That’s all you take?” she asked.“I do take an allergy tablet to help me shut down my mind at night” I admitted.After our ride home things. I pulled out my journal and began writing. I was searching for an answer to Joyce’s question. What was I looking for? What was driving me? As I thought about it, I wondered why it was that I broke off some relationships. The ones I broke off always had something missing. What was missing?I had pushed away some girls who wanted relationships. Why? Just because of Jennifer and Joyce? I hadn’t done that when Birgit was alive because I had both Becky and Jennifer. I had also pushed away other girls.